Despair

All I can say for now is

'AM SORRY'

I know what I've done.

I realise that mistakes.

I know you believe in me, have a full faith on me

but what I've done just that

broke everything into pieces.

My heart shattered into pieces.

The truth is really hard to accept, but that is what

HE gave me.

I controlled my tears, and told you 

"ya, am fine"

But inside am crying my lungs out.

Just wanted to have someone beside me

to tell what I felt and cry out loud!

Gazillion times sorry is not enough,

I know that

because the pain that you felt, I feels it too.

And now, I've lost the confidence 

that you had on me.

I lost it!

Am wondering, what shall I do now

to recollect back those shattered hearts?

Eventhough I know you'll 

forgive me because you do loves, and do cares

BUT........

there is always scars left, which

will always makes me feel bad.

You keep your faith on me,

its all my mistakes that I never hold that promise :(

Am really sorry.

Can I gt one more chance?

Stupendous Trip

I've had, The time of my life,
 I Never Felt this way before,

I swear, This is true,
& I'm Holding on to you.
♥

All I wish now is get back those precious moment and experience it once again. Can I?

Last weekend was a remarkable days that filled with joy and laughter with my long lost friends. 
Couldn't express how happy am I to see all those faces again and recollect back those laughter.
I was totally exited when those fellas came up with gathering. Like Duh! I love it. 
The most hardest thing for me in my life is ask for a permission from my parents especially my mommy, but after bugging her life for days, finally she allowed. :D
Saturday I took bus to Seremban and it was kind of Dinesh who waited for me in Terminal 2. It has been months since I saw him. Missed him. 
Then met with Kavin all, went to PD with them. It was a wonderful and fascinating journey. I felt the same havocs that I got it last time. 3 days 2 nights was awesome days, and was happy moment for me.
Time spent beside beach and those night talks just made my days. 
That could be my memorable and lovely holiday. Its because I felt so loved and feel being in home with my family :)
I was waiting for months, and finally it came, enjoyed much and felt soo heavyhearted to say another goodbye again.
I wish I never want to say GOODBYE to my loves. But am just an ordinary person and can't never change the fate that all this is just a while, but those memories will never fades away even after centuries. :D
Now am back to my territory, rotting in house, missing every single seconds in that 3 days, and now another waiting session arrived for another lovely holidays. 

*Wish we are like the series "How I met Your Mother". 
Dinesh, Kavin, Aneshaa & Vimala  *
I know this will never happen but after this whenever we meet up(after another 8 months), sure will have an extraordinary holidays :)

6 Jan 2011

A day to remember and I hope this could the FIRST and LAST! *finger crossed*
FYI, currently I'm still an ILLEGAL DRIVER on road since am still in process of taking my car license.
Due to that, I gt my ILLEGAL TICKET (SAMAN) today... Ishhkkkk!!
I was traumatised after the scene of gt caught by JPJ,
I saw on Saman Paper, "Vimala Devi Subramainam" "kesalahan : membawa kereta tanpa lisen".. uuurrrggghhh!!
I've never been in this situation before, and my mom told me, "get used to it" since am going to sit for my driving test next week. I can't wait for the day so that I can be a free bird and can drive legally on road. Wish me luck peeps :D

Welcome 2011. Back off 2010

Whee! AM BACK to my territory. It feels good at last I can post something here after abandoned my bloggie for I guess 1 MONTH!! Hee
This is the first post for the year 2011.
Finally in a blink of eyes,  2011 had reached the door of mine and for everyone, and it should be a brand NEW YEAR! 2010 ended with so much of memories. Memories that never fades.
And 2011 another year for me to create a lovely and sweet memories with sweethearts and awesome friends.
Unlike rest of years where I had so much of resolutions, this year I only had ONLY ONE , that is GET MYSELF IN UNI FOR MY DEGREE!
I've decided what I going to do and now its all depends on my results where I should end up with.
 *finger crossed*
Talk about new year eve, I had such an awesome family gathering with all uncles, aunties and cousins were gathered and said cheers together. This was my first time celebrated a new year in such a way. Relatives always means alot for me, especially those FUN, LOVE and LAUGHTER with them. At the same time celebrated my aunt's birthday which fall on 31st. I had marvellous time being with them.
Hope this year gonna be a wonderful year for all of us and yeah hope I start being an obedient girl in house. Lol!