Stuffy

Everything seems difference for me now. Totally difference. There is no space for me to breath. I felt am in empty room without oxygen. Ya, I could feel it and am feeling it right now.

I couldn't imagine that at one point I gt nobody to talk too, to share everything that I feel like telling. Now I realise I should keep some matters to myself only. Its only between me and myself :). 

Last Wednesday, what a sad day with sombre face and tearing eyes. Because its a day my bestbuddy fly off. Ya, I managed to control myself, thank God, from tearing infront of her. I gave a wide smile that drew on my face with a warm hug with the hopes it could comfort her, and we sent her off happily. Before say bye to her, I told her 'faster come back, I couldn't wait to meet you again' . I turning behind and looked at her, wish time could stop at that moment, but its failed. I went back with full of heavyhearted. Thanks to Dinesh, Kavin, Mohan and Thami was there with me :D 

My tears burst out once I stepped in car. I felt terrible at that moments but yet I should be proud of her for being the first move in our group :D. The only person that I hold strongly was Dinesh, he manage to understand my feelings as he do always. He was the one was consulting me throughtout this period. And I felt way more better after had a warm huggy huggy from him :D..Thanks my father. No words for you! 

My lovely sweet Kavin is always been a very obedient mom and always been funny guy that I never ever meet before :). Like the way he is :D. One more time tearing session gonna come soon. Hahaha. Haih, mummy is leaving too :((. *speechless*

I've been very lucky to have them and felt comfort when showered by their loves and cares. Its more that enough for me. What else I want from them. They always been my best listener and best adviser. Ever since Aneshaa left, they always tell me that 'am here with you, no worries'. Awwwww, my papa and mama sooo cute :S. I believe that no matter how many years it will take, hw far is the distance, our friendship will always remain as fresh as ever. Heartyouguyslotsss .

Friends For Life

                                                       

Blissfull

When am down, when am sad, when am really broke, when am really gt no mood, this is the time comes my classmates in picture. They are really sweet and do care alot of me.

Classes is still on like always. If Monday can get any worse, I swear I'd die. Its damn tiring and yet we always have fun in class. Unlike today, I was totally sad due to my best buddy gonna leave soon, not soon its in 2 days time. Wuwuwuwuwu... how sad it could be. So I was totally down, no mood to enjoyed with my classmates. As am the most hyped in every classes but not today. I can't concentrate in class and I was day dreaming. I wish to go and see her at that moments. Hmmmm.... at that time, my classmates was asking me 'what happened,vimala', 'are you ok,vimala' , 'why you soo moody today', and I swear it totally melted me and I just told them am fine, no worries. They are soo sweet and do loves me alot. They can't see me moody or sad as told earlier the most hyper and super hyped girl. Its more than enough to have them besides me. They made me laughed, and draw a smile on my face. Thanks everyone. 7A2 ROCKSSSS!!!!

I can't be asking more when am having such an awesome dudes with me, hw wonderful is my lifes rite. Awwwwww, really sweet of them :).

She :)

Lifes is pretty much happening, full of joy and enjoyable, only when there is a name called 'FRIENDS'.

Month of August is the month that I have to say BYE BYE to my few friends, and this friends are just soo attached to me while am Inti and mades my lifes pretty wonderful. We created so much of precious moments together under the same sky.

First of all, is my closely and lovely friend, SANGEET BHULLAR..

She is not only my friends, but also as my mother who always there for me, non stop advises, always give her shoulder for me to cry on when am down, who always patiently listen to all my stories and most importantly, who always take good care of me. Wooowww, she is really awesome. I wish she is here with me now. Eventhough she was here for 8 months, but we 3 angels (me, sangeet and maleni) had soo much of fun of laughed, shared our stories together, bathed together, slept together, eat together, played together and so on.

We had our own breakfast time, lunch time, tea time, dinner time and supper time together which was really awesome. I couldn't get rid all these memories from my mind. Its still fresh in my memories. She has been like our mother took good care of us while she was here for 8 months. Especially when we not feeling well. Weeeeeee:)... Me and Maleni really had good time with her thou. I missing Sanggy Munkky now :(.

Not gonna write anymore. Next post will be on my buddy Aneshaa. Wuwuwuwuw. its gonna be a long long post:)

Its not the end!

Actually I suppose to post this msg earlier but since am busy this past few days, here goes another kinda emo post :).

Sleepless night! Hoped for the best but turned up bad. Really disappointed and upset with it. I should have done better than it and I know it well. I can't do anything now. Am tearing, its hurting. I put much effort but ended up this is what I gt. Now, I really don't know what to do. Am in confusion. Haizz :(.. No point sighing now. This was unexpected. As I said earlier, what has done is done. Hoping tomorrow will be better than today. This is what everyone telling me. Hmmmm, let see whether is true or not. I don't know how am I suppose to stand up and do it again. Am really gt no energy and sometimes just feel like give up with it. Anyhow, I believe with my beloved family and lovely friends courage, I will do way more better than this.

I know I hurts my parents, but I will try my best to heal that pain. I want to get back the confidence that they had on me. I don't want to see them with sombre face. Its actually my mistakes but I will try to get rid of that mistakes next time :).

Anyway, I dissapointed my father the most :( and he gt nothing to say about it. He manage to hide his sadness and I knew it well. No matter what, next aim of mine is to make my dad happy.

Nalni sis, you've been supporting me all this while and at this moments you still giving me courage to not give up ..Its not easy for me to accept it but thanks to you ...am gonna do much more better:) heartyoualot♥♥♥

Dinesh and Kavin, you both are just superb awesome dudes. Am happy to have you guys with me :). I knew I screwed it but you both really made me realise it was just small portion of lifes. More to go yet. Eventhough we all not together in same college, but you guys really care and love me soo much plus understand your daughter well, with all the courage words makes me to stand back and fight against failure :).

Dinesh, I knew you surprised with it, but that was fated and what has done is done. I have to move on as you always tell me. I always remember whatever you said to me. 'ACTION SPEAKS LOUDER THAN WORDS'. Hahaha, its true indeed. I dunno how you manage to stand with all my tortures and complains. But one thing, you really gave me alot of lectures, sometimes I just get irratated with it. Hahahaha, but am very obedient, so no worries I will do it:) Thanks Dinesh.

Kavin, You always tell me since from beginning- Vimala, don't worry, you can do it. You are smart and you will be success in it. Awwwww Kavin, you really a sweet friend :).  Even you said Vimala Subramainam will join for degree next year July and will be a success nutritionist in 4 years time with the name Dr. Vimala Subramainam.  That really gave me strength to not give up in achieving my dreams. Hmmmm, am gonna miss you much after you fly off :(

Sangeet and Maleni, thanks for all the courage and encouragement that you all gave to me. I felling way better now :). Without you guys, am totally will be emo-ing the whole time :). Happy to have you both with me-)

This is not my end, I gonna continue my footsteps like them. I always wish that I can be one of them and not become like them. I will cherish every seconds that am having now. I know its gonna be a hectic time but I have to do it.

*winks*

I will prove it :)

Its time

Tik Tok Tik Tok Tik Tok.. Time is running, waiting for tomorrow morning to know what my future gonna be.

Nervousness and insecure feelings are really killing me slowly. I don't want to think about it because what has done is done. Thinking about is making me moody and can't even concentrate :(. All the best for my classmates too because they also having the same feeling as me:0.We can't do anything now. We did the best and hope for the best. Think positive and stay calm. :)

Trying to cheer up:)

Limited time

Few more hours to determine whether the effort and my hardworks all this while pay off or not. I seriously hoping it could draw a smile on my face. I just hope the best which equal to effort that I put.

FINGER CROSSED! 

How I wish I could spend some time with my beloved friends before they fly off. Joanna, my schoolmate is flying off very soon but sadly I couldn't meet up with her before that :(. And yet my bestie leaving very soon too, Aneshaa, Kavin and Rancy. As staying really apart from them is quite hard eventhough there is phones, skype and msn but still the fun that we have it together is totally different. I just hope there some left over time just for me to spend with them. Am gonna miss all of you soo much!! But I know can't, there is just a limited time for me to sort out everything. Everything is moving very fast like roller coaster, and am one of the rider who feel freaky for every seconds. 

Emotianally tearing up!