Puffed up

At this moments, I realise am just an ordinary person, just an ordinary person. I realise that I can't turn back those times and rewind everything again. I have to move on and stop regretting on what I've done. 

Like they said : Everyone make mistakes. So do I.

For the past 1 month, I've been in a world full of depressions and my mind was cluttered with unnecessary thoughts. I can't say that is unnecessary thoughts, its more like I don't have an AIM. At one stage, I was wondering what happen to Vimala that been very cheerful person? I don't know where am standing and could never think more than anything.
The feeling of falling down from a sky, hardly to breath and feels so suffocate makes me look like a zombie. lol
My life was stucking in the middle of everything and it was really hard to make a wise, good perhaps the best choice for me. 
And now undoubtly, I have made my mind and will always, ALWAYS stick to it. =)

Tears

                                              

I can't stop my tears.

Every single seconds am suffering.

Only tears can tell how hurtful this pain is. 

and am totally BLANK!!

Why among all, I have to face all this?

Why is me?

I want something that can make myself and parents proud, 

why can't I do that?

I doesn't mean to hurt you by not listening to you, 

but I can't let go decision that I made.

I don't want at the end of day I regret on something 

that I fail to do when I gt chance.

Maybe I made mistakes in past,

but that can't say what I gonna be at the end.

I don't want all my dreams demolish just

because I don't want hurt you all. 

I cares for your feelings, and NOT MINE.

Maybe you all will be happy, but I WILL NEVER!!

I don't know whether am being too choosy 

or am being too selfish in this matter.

SELFISH, STUBBORN and ARROGANT 

words that had chosen for me. 

I felt it and only GOD knows me well.

You all are just thinking to settle problem in fast way,

and NEVER THINK ABOUT ME.

Myself will never give up as easily as like that. 

I will stand behalf myself. 

Its a promise.

Valentine's Day

GOSH! It has been quite some time after I posted something here. Blog left abandoned, I know that but I do regularly check ups aite. :D

Annd here goes a very lovely yet sweetness day ever, VALENTINES DAY!!

Am always the most exiting person on this day eventhough, EVENTHOUGH I am still available *take the point* But I had spent my whole 20 years Valentine with the best people ever :) I love ya'll.  

My beloved family and awesome friends is my Valentine for this past 20 years. 

By saying this, will I have a someone special  that I have to start be more lovey-dovey on next Valentine?? Oh crap!!! Haha. *Vimala, stop dreaming*

Moreover, am loving this sweet day even more when mommy started to tell all our childhood stories. Awwww, mom was just making me to miss my childhood moments It was superb awesome when those times rewind back. Faughts with siblings, "settai" (naughtiness) that we did, fun that we had as in when we were together in a room, those pillow fights, marvellous times with cousins & the list goes on, makes me totally taken aback. I wish I'm still a small kid now!!

I loves my siblings soo very much. My childhood times is not complete without you all. Lotsa loves *xoxo*

Till nw, Vimmie going to hit the sack in abit, because I can't resists my eye bags :D