Sometimes, its sad to see, how much my life has changed over some decisions..

Drastically changed.. :)

I regretted, dissapointed and mad at myself.

But after everything, now I'm having confidence on myself that 2012 gonna be AWESOME ONE for me :)

Countdown for the difficult-long-trashy-crappy year to end!!

Scared

I don't know why I'm scared to see what's gonna happen. 

Only if I have a time machine or whatsoever, 
I wish to go back to my baby life, cuz cuzzz
*I wanna see my baby picture, I think amma missed it*... pfft!!

                                   


Seems like I don't have any other choice when the only choice given was OPTION A..
FML!
I don't undestand why all this shits happening ONLY TO ME.. ;(
If and only if I born earlier than 1991 or later than 1991.  :(

Depressed

Thinking about all the things that happened to me for past 2 days, its really hurting, at the same time making me feel depressed. 
Putting me as a middle person in all situation, is really hard and really stressful. 
Where should I go and what should I do? 
Most importantly, who should I listen to? 
Different people have different thoughts. Ish Ish.. 


Is that those advises showing that I have to twist my life to another pathway, plus now I'm in the stage whereabout to give up? 
Urgghhhh! 

I'm not strong enough to take all this at one time. 

COM'ON,  I'M JUST 20 DUDES!!

Time

Its December!
I didn't know time flies this fast, superb fast. Its stupid if I ask to rewind back times, memang I don't want! If can I dont want to rewind back what happened, either bad or good. 


December, last month of year 2011, lets see what it have for me.
2011, full of miserables and full of fun, maybe. 
Finally, another few weeks to start a new year again. 
I decided to come out from student's life for a year. 
Took me a year to make a decision, a very hard and tough decision thou. Another a month to go. 
And why now I feel like I'm on the verge of giving up, COMPLETELY.
I was way stronger all this while, but now I'm like giving up on all my dreams, on all my ambitions. 
I really need to motivate myself. 


Life's not as easy as I think, for all the things that happened to me, praying hard that something good will happen soon. *finger crossed*


Oh yeah, seems like my blog post for this year much lesser than last year.
Guess I'm more busier when I'm not a student. Haha.