More that a month left

Its soo exiting in a way to know that there is only a month more left for me in Inti. Then am done with these "sucky" A-levels. The thing that I thought could bring me to another better pathway, is not at the end. Trust me, its superb hectic. And, I guess it could be a sad Goodbye for me from Inti. Uncountable memorable moments.

Anyway, It's 24th of September, that means am still left like around one month for my finals. But since am repeating a paper, so it will be earlier bit. I feel soo stressful and doesn't have good feeling about it. A2 is really hard, and now surprisingly AS exams is easier compared to A2exams :)

Every weeks having tests is making my lifes more miserable. I feel soo stuffy and I think my stress level is increasing day by day. Next week is my trials, which am gonna put my full effort on it. Am not gonna do like hw some of my classmates doing. NEVER GIVE UP!! I put faith on myself that I could do it better, and I hopes I will never make myself down. Left one more month where I have to cherish all precious times and get done with my revisions. Final destinations which will decide what am gonna do next. I hope I can reach this destination safely and successfully.

Am not gonna aim very high like A or B, which I made when I did AS EXAMS, and it turned me off, and I was soo upset about it. It took soo long for me to overcome that sadness. I will be satisfy if the results is equal with the effort that am putting now.

I hope I get bless for my upcoming exams. NEVER EVER LOST THE MOMENTUM!  

GOOD LUCK VIMMIE !! :)

D ♥ P&M

Do you all know what mean by my header? Guess, guess! Hahahaha

D ♥ P&M

It means DODO loves her POPO and MOMO.  To be more understandable, it means I loves my papa and mama. After I entered INTI, I felt pathetic because have to stay apart from my loves one especially my parents. For 17years I've been with them, its totally different feeling when stayed apart from them. Here came my another loves one from my second home, INTI. I had my own family over here which I'll never get anywhere. They are soo caring and soo loving. Awwwwww, I've been showering by their loves ever since I joined INTI. Thanks to INTI. 

My Popo is Dinesh which is my fake father and my Momo is Kavin which is another fake mother. Hahaha, I guess only am having a fake parents and am soo in love with them. Its just soo coincidence  to have them as my parents. Its soo touch and sweet of them  when am showered with their loves and cares. Am wondering how could I soo attach with them instead of my girl friends. To tell frankly, I feel more comfortable and more consistent for me to talk with them. To tell honestly, Dinesh will be the first person who am always share everything. Initially I used to think that nobody understand me well, but not now. As how much I knew about myself, I believe they knew too. Eventhough God is not bless me with what I wish, but yeah HE gave me such an awesome and yet sweet friends who I believe will be together for forever. Nobody can change this relationship because its way too strong  to break it up. What else I would wish for in my life when I already found my true friends. True friends will never fail to makes you happy, create smile on your face when you're down and never makes you feel bad of the thing that have done! 

We also had our family day which we spent nicely throughout this whole period. Movies, roaming around, talk craps, laughed like hell, shopping, lunch, dinner, outing..... soo much!! To talk about them, it will never end, thats how they are to me. Not to mention that they are really really awesome, but yeah they made my days. 

They are not my friends, but my best best friends!!! Time and distance will never let us feel apart, because we always been together in each of our heart. As Kavin always said, ONE LOVE! Weeeeee
This friendship will remain as fresh as ever!!!

Not much to say when. . . .

I'm the person who complain much about lifes

I'm the person who easily gives up

I'm the person who always being selfish

I'm the person who always wanted the best, but at the end I can't do it

I'm the person who always think about it, but there is no action

I'm the person who always think positive initially but turn up to negatory

I'm the person who wanted to be someone at the end of day, but there is no hardwork on it.

I'm the person who always being too social and never gives important to one and only ALEVEL

That is the reason I couldn't being THE BEST all this while.

I always think that I made a mistakes and regret about it, but yeah, when I see there is not only me doing that, I feel abit better. But I know that am just being an useless daughter by not giving what parents expecting from me. I feel am  not bringing any benefit. Uuurrrggghhhh, I could do it better if I gt faith on it. YA I CAN!

I wanted to join my degree as soon as possible, I want to be someone as soon as possible. I don't want delay about it. It s all depend on my final exams that I gonna sit on this coming October. Hmmmm. I don't want to dissapoint them over and over again. 

Not much to say when I saw not only me being like this, there are people who worse than me. But I know everyone will be someone at the end of the day. Maybe today, tomorrow, next year or after few years. 

But if we gt faith on ourselves and interest on what we doing, I believe there is no chance for failure. 

Uncle's wedding

It was 12th Sept where two heart gt together after been together for 5 years. Awwww its soo sweet and lovely. Happy married life to my uncle and aunty. Wish them always happy forever.

Aunty and Uncle

These past three days I had soo much of fun and laughter, together with cousins, my parents and other relatives. It was really havoc times spent with them.  I had an awesome time with my cousins especially Shiamala, Kahmini, my brothers and with my siblings too :D

My loves...

All my sisters and cousins

Me with my favourite uncle ;D

Familia

By the way, I suppose do some revisions for my upcoming exams. And I totally forgt about my books. BIO, CHEM AND MATHS where are youu???? lolx..

But anyway, am doing my revisions now. So no worries :).I gt really minimal time left.

So no more waste of any single seconds. Weeeee... Hope everything will turn out well :) Chayo chayo!!

 

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Total randomness

Guess what!! I met those dudes. Hahaha. Finally!! I thought today also will be another playback scene gonna happen, but yeah it turned well :D. Eventhough it was just a lil while, but of course am happy to met them. Atleast I wont feel bad once am back my home. Thanks for Mohan and Kavin for a boring ride in car :(. Hahaha. Thanks to them again for cheering me up :). And, am looking forward for another meet up. Its gonna be last meet up with Kavin I guess. 

Anyway, its Thursday and I can't wait to go back home :). Its my shorty uncle's wedding day.  Its gonna be a wonderful weekends with relatives, fun moments with cousins and those camwhore with sisters :). I love it. Most surprisingly, my lovely grandma started asking me to come back by today itself. Awwwww, I missing her and her hugs :).. Its time for catch up from relatives and cousins. Hopefully it will turn out well. More updates about it after the wedding :D

But the sad part, am not gonna totally enjoy my break as I expected earlier on. Its gonna be a massive break for me. Having exams right after my break is NOT A HAPPY NEWS. Hopefully I will keep my words. Am gonna do way more better. I have faith on myself which I believe I could do it better :). After had made everyone upset with previous results, am not gonna repeat it again and again. FINGER CROSSED. ACTION SPEAKS LOUDER THAN WORDS!!!

Playback

I suppose to spend time with them. Because I knew after Raya break am gonna totally indulge with my books.

So I thought can go out with them the whole day, have fun, have laughter together, wanted to create another memorable moments, but yet everything just pull me down when they said can't make it. I was damn angry with them!!!! Why everything that I wish will never happen? Am soo angry with myself.  It has been soo many times.

It was a promise to bring me out. When there is a word said "I can't make it" , acc its hurts me alot, am damn disappointed. But yeah, I forgive them because I do love, care and understand them well. Even I forgive them, there is always scars left, which I will always remember it. I keep my faith on it because I do trust them much, but why you all never keep the promise??  I believe you all will never put me down ever, ever and forever, but I guess am wrong. Its not always. You all can't imagine how exited and  happy I was about it, but you all just break the promise. Its ok, there is always forgiveness for a mistakes :)

Am not too overreacted about it. I just wanted to see you all since it has been quite some time we never meet, and just wanted to have fun after I had soo much of stressed mode over here. I miss you all!!!

Killer Subject

Chemistry!! I felt sorry for you because eventhough I tried soo much but I failed. Not to say totally, its precisely 85%. Yeah, am pretty sure you will have your own way to get a life right? You are torturing me and making me to kill myself. How pathetic it could be?  Why you hate me till like this? Can you get into my brain? Pleaseeee...

ORGANIC CHEMISTRY!! 

Phenol

Benzoic Acid

Amines 

Amides

  .....

My brain is heavyloaded with all those equations, properties and their chemical reactions. 

I have to make good friend with chemistry I guess. 

Will I be alive after tomorrow? God knows...

Damn, can I do it? Am doubting myself where am not suppose to do so. At this moment, I should say I can do it, I can get A. Yeah, but why why its soo negatory? No No, I have to get rid of it from my mind! 

Vimala can!! Yippie, I gt back that confidence. I will :D

Terrified

Can I be like a girl in wonderland?

Can everything be more like a dream??

How I wish.

Am stunned with reality

Its totally traffic.

OMG!!!

My day of judgement is just around the corner.

OCTOBER!!! 

One more month to go.

Still got lots and lots to revise.

Can I finish up with my revision before OCT?

Can I???

Question mark on my head...

Will I makes my parents satisfy with me??

Will I makes my dream come true??

Will I??

Owh, when will I get answer for these questions??

I can't wait for the day.

Its making me soo curious and nervous.

I made this decision

I have to bear with it :D

No offence about it.

And 

 from this moment,

I will never waste any of my precious time. 

Because it meant alot to me.

* back to study table and start revising my chemistry,*

ORGANIC CHEM, HERE I COME :D