Exhausted

Its monday and the day initially was abit bored but still I overcame it when sunlight turn to moonlight. Started my day went Bank and did all the stuff that dad asked for. When am back to house, I was like dead dog. Felt soo exhausted, tired and sleepy. What the hell happened to me? I never been like this before this. I just felt like sleeping, sleeping and sleeping. I had no mood to do any other stuff other than SLEEPING. My minds was blowing away with all those nonsense stuff. I cant help myelf. I didn't talk properly with mother, brother and sisters as how I do always. What wrong with VIMALA DEVI??

Its just a great feeling when you need a friend especially your best friend to talk with and that friend call you at that moment. Yeah! He did. Dinesh, I really appreciate your calls. U had make me smiled and laughed. Am always thanks to you aite. Is you and only you can do that to make your daughter cheer up!

Plussss my mother was soo in good mood today. She knew that something was wrong with me so she was trying to make me laugh and at one point I cant *tahan* and burst out laughing at her jokes. I really loves you mom! You are the best ever mom that I have. Ma, you always ask me to sleep early aite, but I never done that before and I think I gonna be an obedient daughter tonight. Yeah!!  Bed, here I come!

Till then,

Vimmie the dummie.

Weeeeeeee :)

Missing♥

Today is Sunday and it should be a very happening day! But am really not in the mood of going out or do something interesting. I feel like am dissolving slowly by slowly because there is no energy in me to boost me up. Am sick and tired of everything. I want to move out from this hole and be how I was last time.

I missing them.

I really need them now.

I want to spend time with them.

I want have fun with them.

I want to laugh with them.

I want to share my problems and happiness with them.

Wish they are here with me at this second.

Wish I could make the clock move in anti-clockwise. 

I WANT IT HAPPEN NOW NOW NOW NOW NOW NOW!!!!
Who else I'll be missing right now if not my best ever frens aka my parents!!!!

                                     Missing Them :(

Troublesome

Am soo pissed off. Why you did that? You know how ma fan for me or not? You know how much of effort I put to create such thing? You know how long am spent on it or not? Why Why Why?????? Why you must do that?? Uuuurrrrgggghhhh!!! ----->>> BLAMING AND SCOLDING MY HANDS!
Yesterday was checking out my blog because plan to change my background, and my itchy hand have to go 'click' and 'click' and  'click' all the nonsense stuff. Once I save my settings and viewed my blog, OH GOSH! What the hell I did? All gone. And my blog's background look terrible and hoooribleeeee!
I went back to my settings and it took me 2 hours to repair everything but still I never satisfied with my blog! Nah, it should look more attractive bt it doesn't. I failed and gave up in it, at the same time I was soo exhausted! Plan to sleep, but can't sleep! Hmmmm...On my lappy and started listening to songs..ended up slept off!
Today once got up, after had breakfast, straight head towards computer desk and tried soo many templates to see which want matching my blog....Annnnddd finally, tah daaaaaa...see,this is my new image...its quite similar thou! Hahaha...Just simply there is nothing which attract my eyesight..balik yang original yek..Weeeeeee!!

Give me freedom!

Being nineteen was pretty much when a lot of things changed and happened in me. pfft... Buuuuuuuuutttttt sometimes, only I can feel that and not the others. Why?? Is that am still look like a small kiddo to you all? or the way I behave look like am immatured? I cant understand. Why is this things happening on me? 

I just want to be myself. Am a type of girl that always need what I want and never give up till the end to get it!

Annndddd, am not a type of girl likes to follow what other people doing.  
STOP COMPARING ME WITH OTHERS!!!!  

I just hate it larh!

Am trying being myself, not to say am selfish, but I just want my own freedom. I want to do what I want. Perhaps kinda selfish because I really did what I want. Hehehehe. I want to go whereever I want to go. Its bit too much I guess because I did go wherever I want to go. Lolx. I just want makes my lifes more happening and more FUN! I mean when am having holidays. C'mon people, am nineteen, its an age I should  be more independent and be more realistic. But everything seems miserable when there is always an obstacles.EveryONE still thinks am just 9 years old instead of 19 years old..WTF? should not do that, should not do this. Its soo ridiculous. I NEED FREEDOMS!

But since small my lifes has been likes this, I cant change it. I have to admit that I change alot ever since I entered  in college, trying to be more independent, trying to be more matured and trying to think wisely, but seems something is always stopping me to do that! *sigh*

Am totally gutted with everyone for not understanding me well. Its ok. I shall understand my ownself. Am just waiting for a right time to come and hit me. Human beings always have unsatisfied feeling even thou they gt more than what other people have. Thats homo sapien's natural. LMAO!

Anyhow I should not complain much. Haha. Because am happy with my lifes now. I should appreciate what I had now and I've been always tell to myself how lucky am I to be in this society and family.  Sometimes am just pity of the children in other country, eg, cambodia,India and etc...They are deserve to live a better life but seems there are limited chances for them. I just hope I can do something for them. Yeah!, have to do something. 

Alah, out of topic pulak. Back to my freedom talk, people of the world, am not same with others, I always have my own way to be myself. Am not gonna be a copycaters and being a photostate machine. ROFL!

ya in conclusion I need freedommm for being a true VMALA DEVI!! 

THE END. haha

Boredam!

OH GOSH! Its damn freaking bored everyday staying at home, doing nothing except onlining, facebooking, doing survey about my universities and checking out hot stuff. I cant wait this friday. Looking forward to meet all my friends. Weeeee

Talking about hot stuff, nowadays, am really addicted to FIFA world cup. My mother said am having FIFA WORLD CUP fever. Hahahahaha. Ya, that is the only thing that I can do for time passing. Hehe. Its has been a very crictical situation where is very hard to choose which team will be choosen for final. Argentina?(no no cannot be) Brazil?(most probably, infact am supporting them) England?( just feel this world cup is nt belong to them) Spain? (not at all)...Just wait and see.

Brazil has been my all time favourite team! They always beat the rest teams and will never let others to beat them. Go brazil!! Yeasterday's match was awesome where Brazil beat Ivoire 3-1. Fabiona did a very well job. Am wondering what happen to Drogba(Top scorer). I won't be surprise if Brazil take again the World Cup title. Let see how if any miracles happens or not!. Finger crossed.

Am Touched ♥

How am suppose to tell? Hmmmmm..Its just difficult for me to find a word to describe you guys. Its beyond awesomeness. Am touched with what you guys told me. Weeeee. I need a group hug badly. Especially Dinesh, I really touched with what you said. You are my awesome friend. The way you express your love and care..Awwww! Am touched!! And I seriously never ever expect to get a soft hearted friend like you. You are my friend dude! Whenever I try my level best to hide my feelings, You sure will get to know. Thats why I like you the most. You understand me more than anyone buddy. Dont get wrong dude, I loves you to bits! You always my first choice to talk to. Weeeeeeee. Btw wish you good luck in reducing your weight. Weeeee. But I will miss your tummy. =( Hehehehehehe.

Omg! He look soo cute with this suit!
Host for talk show world cup 2010 IT SEEMS!

Tomorrow is my buddy's birthday...Am sad and feel bad am not there with her to celebrate it. But dont worry Aneshaa, I will be right back for you k=) Happy birthday and have a blast k. May God bless you. Weeeeee. I shall treat you with eggs once am there. Hehehehe! I always hold my words k.

                             Birthday Girl                                

Without you = Lonely

Yesterday was the last day I spent left over times with my buddies( my seniors) before I came back to home sweet home. I had my last hug from them.  Anesha and Rahael came to send us back. Luckily I can meet them before they left. I control my tears from dropping down and said " keep in touch guys". While stepping my leg on bus, I turned back to look at you guys with full of heavyhearted....Felt like am leaving something very precious...

Those days I  spent with them was soo awesome and now remains as memories. And these memories gonna makes our friendship bond get stronger. I had been with them since I joined Inti. Almost one and half years. It was easy to say HELLO but hard for me to say BYE to them.

This is for you Aneshaa :

The first day I meet you, you was not soo close to me but yet we became very close day by day. All the crazy shit we did together always will be our golden memories. The first time we went out together, I think it should be Midvally aite, if am not mistaken. Sometimes we jog together until late evening and ended up roaming around Inti and went back to room night only=). It was fun thou. We always went out to Roswel late night. Time that we spend together behind the blocks till the late night talking about all the stories will be most unforgettable memories. Days we spent with Dinesh and Kavin in Bangsar was awesome memories. PD trip that we went...OMG!!!!..such an awful situation. Still remembered we went library just on time library gonna close, I think somewhere around 9 something=). We was running all the way to library. Weeeeee..Recently, our Pau time that we had, our Tau Fu Fa time that we had.. Hmmmm...We always have endless stories to tell but yet time keep on running and will never stop for our stories to finish. Hahaha. Sometimes we never realise time running soo fast till for hours we had been talked. Hehehehehe.

Recently we went Midvally and Sunway will be the most rocking time that we shall not forgt=). I think if want to tell everything, this page will never enough for me. Let all the memories just stay with us and always shining in our deep heart.

I used my whole time caring about you, always with you around, laugh with you, share my happiness and sadness with you, always tell you all the stories and always be there for you no matter what time and what place.

You

always there for me when I need someone to talk to

You

always cheer me up when am down

You

always give me advise in positive way

You 

always be there for me through think and thin

You

always understand and listen to me when am in perplexed

You

always my best buddy forever

But now everything gonna vice versa. Everything that we did will never happen again if we wish soo.. Life have to move on. I cant always depend on you anymore. I have to be more independent. Everything just happened in one second. No one will be there to company me, no one will be there to create a smile on my face, no one will be there to listen and advise me and I gonna be alone. Superb!!!! Oh Gosh!!!!

No matter what, dstance will never makes us apart. I always be there for you buddy even though you gonna go far far away from me. I always hold your hand when you need me and will try my best to help you out. 

No matter what life has destined for us,
I know that our friendship will never die . ♥ ♥ 

Wishes for you,

All the best in whatever you do.

I know you can do it.

Its Aneshaa, my friend. 

I know you can pass through all the hardships.

Have faith on yourself.

Believe in yourself.

Good luck in your medic field.

I'll waiting for the day to call you as DR.Aneshaa....weeeeeee 

Me and Aneshaa

Midvally

Yay...after exam me and my buddy plan to go Midvally for shopping. I have to get a highheel for the party while she have to get a dress. Right after exam we took KTM and went Midvally. We was soo exited. Hahahaha..We went shopping shopping and shopping. But ended up I failed to get a dress for me=(. My leg was strained because walking for soo long. But it was an awesome trip since we both was laughing like a crazy women. We took soo many pictures. Btw it reminds me when we both was camwhoring, a guy came and asked us whether we need help to take picture. Omg!! We both said No thanks, and started burst out laughing. It was fun thou. Hehehehe..Then by around 10pm we took train and went back. After changed everything, we went out for supper with whole bunch of friends. Quite enjoyed but it was damn tiring. I really had a great time with you. It will be a great memories that I shall jot down on my diary buddy. I loves u soo much. You know how much I cares you. Even single second I never thought of staying apart from you. We are bestie forever.

Finally it ended

I had a big smile on my face once I finished my Chemistry paper 1. Yay =]...AS exam finished. After soo much of effort and gone through all the hardships finally it came to an end. Am happy finally I did it. And now am scared of my result. Uuuurrrgghhhh. Hope everything is fine. Trust me, exams is a medicine for students to kill themselves. Hahahaha..

                                                  

Irratated...Iskkk

I really pissed off once I woke up this early morning. Someone really don't know how to respect. I know am just one year elder than her. But everything has its own limits. If she can irratate me to the maximun, I also can do that but I never do that. I controlled myself since its no use to quarrel with her. But whatever she said its really hurts me alot. I always believe that what goes around will comes around!

I know that am not as pretty as her, as smart as her, as obedient as her and bla bla bla but I'm being myself. Its nothing to compare with other people. I just hate when people compare me with other people.

Seriously I need transform now. With what she said, I think I should  be more independent. I cant depend on them anymore. Its me have to change myself. If they themselves said soo, what about outsiders??? I don't know what I did. Whatever she said, I followed but at the end she can said I never listened to her and bla bla bla bla.. Hurts....hurts...hurts...hurts!

I really gt no confidence towards myself now.. really  speechless!

Haizzz....

Keep holding on ♥♥

This songs remind me of our moments together that always will be our sweet memories ♥♥

 You're not alone
Together we stand
I'll be by your side, you know I'll take your hand
When it gets cold
And it feels like the end
There's no place to go
You know I won't give in
No I won't give in

Keep holding on
'Cause you know we'll make it through, we'll make it through
Just stay strong
'Cause you know I'm here for you, I'm here for you
There's nothing you could say
Nothing you could do
There's no other way when it comes to the truth
So keep holding on
'Cause you know we'll make it through, we'll make it through

So far away
I wish you were here
Before it's too late, this could all disappear
Before the doors close
And it comes to an end
With you by my side I will fight and defend,
I'll fight and defend
Yeah, yeah!

Keep holding on
'Cause you know we'll make it through, we'll make it through
Just stay strong
'Cause you know I'm here for you, I'm here for you
There's nothing you could say
Nothing you could do
There's no other way when it comes to the truth
So keep holding on
'Cause you know we'll make it through, we'll make it through

Hear me when I say, when I say I believe
Nothing's gonna change, nothing's gonna change destiny
Whatever's meant to be will work out perfectly
Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah!

La da da da
La da da da
La da da da da da da da da

Keep holding on
'Cause you know we'll make it through, we'll make it through
Just stay strong
'Cause you know I'm here for you, I'm here for you
There's nothing you could say
Nothing you could do
There's no other way when it comes to the truth
So keep holding on
'Cause you know we'll make it through, we'll make it through

Keep holding on...
Keep holding on

There's nothing you could say
Nothing you could do
There's no other way when it comes to the truth
So keep holding on
'Cause you know we'll make it through, we'll make it through

 Its 1.00am, and am still online while listening to Keep Holding On songs. At the same time blogging. Is nice to blog seems I can expressed my feelings here than to human beings. Since am missing my friends all a lot, decided to look through all my memorable pictures. When I was looking through all those pictures, I can feel my tears is running like a tap water. Its actually because I was too glad and felt lucky to have my lovely friends with me. Initially when I decided wanna go study at college, I felt that am gonna be alone, but its totally not at all. They are soo sweet caring and nice. I really thanks to God for gave me a chance to meet them. Whenever I need them, I won't be surprise if they are there for me. To describe our friendship sweetness, it will be million times sweeter than anything. They are across the sweetness boundaries. I always hope the promise that we did  as to remain as friends forever will always remain the same. No matter what come across, we always be there for each other. Holding each other's hand and walk across the hapiness and sadness together. Tee hee....

Lonely (•̪●)

Is this want I want?? Am gutted..am confused...I seriously don't know what am doing..

I dont know what my future gonna be, what am I interest off, what am I gonna do and....seriously am speechless and afraid of it..=(.. I have to think about it..

Sometimes just feel like I gt no guts to move on.

Nutrition and dietatics??

OR

Dietatics??

OR 

Biomedical science??

IMU??

OR 

Uni of OTAGO??

OR

UNISA??

I feel like sitting beside the beach with my favourite musics..I want to be alone..just me and only me...

This past few days I really had bad feeling.

I cant take it anymore..uuuurrrrggghhhhh!!! Sometimes it really hurts when think about that...I want to have some peace of mind. Seriously!!!!!!! 

Am gonna lose everything =(  Am not a loser, I want to be a winner!!!!!!!!

And at this second I realise that, I have to move on and hack everything that is unnecessary for me. I also realise I have to be independent and not always depend on my parents and friends. I believe to have faith on myself. Only me can change myself.

Anyway happy news!!!! Am happy for all my friends. Seems like love is on the air for everyone. Happy for you guys. As long as you guys happy is more than enough.

Sometimes I realise that am like a bird in a cage that dont have freedom at all. Its like cant go here and there, have to stay in one place. Hmmmm...is happening in my life now. I cant tell here and cant tell there. Am stuck between all of them. What am suppose to do??. But whatever happens am going to be myself. No doubt about that.  Everything will be between the inner me and the outer me. Heeeeee...=)

till then,

Scrambled up girl....

Flummoxed

This past few days am really feel disorganized and felt soo unhappy. But I don't know why am behaving like this. I kinda gt the answer but seriously dunno is because of that or not. Hmmmm...am really speechless...

Yesterday I had a very terrible dream, but I dunno what it was about. Once I got up, I was totally freaked out. All of the sudden, I gt scared thought about my future.  I was blurred. Had thought of my future is kinda scary man...GOSH! No kidding...I seriously have to move on and I knew that I cant stop here. Its all about me and only me. Am totally diluted thinkin about that...hmmmm!

I always wondering why people always have problems and not me....am always happy with myself with what I did, what am doing and what am gonna do...=]

But it was totally crap...I really feel soo depressed...something is bothering me. I feel like everything is in mess. Oh Gosh!.. 

I feel like something bad gonna happen. I always hope the best for my friends. I never even thought of losing any of them and I really scared if something happen in between us. But now the feeling is haunting me. Why?? why??... I love all my friends which I treat them as my family member. I always hope that I can hold their hands till the last breath. Anyway always think positive that no such thing gonna happen. heeeeeee=]

Now am really confused, perplexed, everything...

totally speechless~~~~

Just hoping everything will go fine..

till then,

heavyhearted girl=[