Give me freedom!

Being nineteen was pretty much when a lot of things changed and happened in me. pfft... Buuuuuuuuutttttt sometimes, only I can feel that and not the others. Why?? Is that am still look like a small kiddo to you all? or the way I behave look like am immatured? I cant understand. Why is this things happening on me? 

I just want to be myself. Am a type of girl that always need what I want and never give up till the end to get it!

Annndddd, am not a type of girl likes to follow what other people doing.  
STOP COMPARING ME WITH OTHERS!!!!  

I just hate it larh!

Am trying being myself, not to say am selfish, but I just want my own freedom. I want to do what I want. Perhaps kinda selfish because I really did what I want. Hehehehe. I want to go whereever I want to go. Its bit too much I guess because I did go wherever I want to go. Lolx. I just want makes my lifes more happening and more FUN! I mean when am having holidays. C'mon people, am nineteen, its an age I should  be more independent and be more realistic. But everything seems miserable when there is always an obstacles.EveryONE still thinks am just 9 years old instead of 19 years old..WTF? should not do that, should not do this. Its soo ridiculous. I NEED FREEDOMS!

But since small my lifes has been likes this, I cant change it. I have to admit that I change alot ever since I entered  in college, trying to be more independent, trying to be more matured and trying to think wisely, but seems something is always stopping me to do that! *sigh*

Am totally gutted with everyone for not understanding me well. Its ok. I shall understand my ownself. Am just waiting for a right time to come and hit me. Human beings always have unsatisfied feeling even thou they gt more than what other people have. Thats homo sapien's natural. LMAO!

Anyhow I should not complain much. Haha. Because am happy with my lifes now. I should appreciate what I had now and I've been always tell to myself how lucky am I to be in this society and family.  Sometimes am just pity of the children in other country, eg, cambodia,India and etc...They are deserve to live a better life but seems there are limited chances for them. I just hope I can do something for them. Yeah!, have to do something. 

Alah, out of topic pulak. Back to my freedom talk, people of the world, am not same with others, I always have my own way to be myself. Am not gonna be a copycaters and being a photostate machine. ROFL!

ya in conclusion I need freedommm for being a true VMALA DEVI!! 

THE END. haha